I hate everyone and everything. The thought of going to school tomorrow makes me want to kill myself. I just want to stay in my house all day everyday. Every single year I have gotten sick of being bored on winter break and couldn’t wait to get back to school. I need another month off. I will never feel comfortable anywhere but my house. Everybody tries to avoid being a crazy cat lady, but I want to be a crazy cat lady. I can’t deal with anything anymore. School sucks, my friends suck, I can’t do anything right, etc. I don’t blame my friends for being mean to me because I am crazy but they could suck it up a little and be nicer. I wish people would stop lying to me and I wish everybody would just be good and I wish people would start caring about me. But that is all unrealistic, which is why I want to be alone with the exception of my family sometimes. I have been emotionally fine this week because I got to be alone; but the prospect of going to school in a litle over 24 hours is driving me crazy. I fucking hate everything, this paragraph didn’t make any sense/wasn’t organized and I’ll probably delete it tomorrow or kill myself.
i seem upset!!!